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i am not in pain
because i am
i am in pain
because i am
in love

i am not in pain
because of memories
that ring in my head
of happier days
gone by
i am in pain
because of memories
not created
in my mind
of happier days
yet to come.

where we walk
along our own
beaches and sidewalks
to our own shelter
under sheets
as we tangle in knots
and try (not) to find our way out.

memories yet to come
where we talk
all night
and your voice is music
flowing into my ears
instead of letters
followed by blinking cursor
blinding my eyes.

memories yet to come
where we welcome the same sunrise
in the same time zone
over the same horizon
from the same window.

memories yet to come
where we carry each other
through tragedy
and swim together through

i am not pained
because of terrible lies
or long empty nights
or scars carved
from betrayal
or even worse,

i am pained
because of beautiful truth
and far too short nights
that leave me
only touched by type
instead of your hand.

only looked upon
by nightglow of still-frame
2 dimensional eyes
instead of explored by
the deep brown pools
sitting full in oval casings
framed in falling lashes
as they undulate
'cross the tide
of my smile

and only kissed
by the breeze from
my open window
only silenced
by my own sighs.
til we can both breathe through the same window.
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Daily Deviation

Given 2002-06-16
windowbreath by utro is simply one of the best poems I have read. Beautiful is the only to describe it. Please go read this, now. sent by faithwalker. (Selected by +skyorange) ( Featured by skyOrange )
miserabel Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Very intense emotion, I adore this :)
Tasarz Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2005
Wow, really good! It's nice to read hopelessly romantic poetry.
tragicrabbit Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2003
how do you do this? its beyond me. your words provoke me into thinking and inspire me to write and write until there are no longer any words inside of me. your poetry is amazing. and this is quite how i am feeling at the time.

- brittany
niminitzar Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2003
EXCELLENT!!!!!!! wow... I needed to read that... I was looking for that... I did not know where to look so chose a random poem and I can only say thanks. EXCELLENT!!!!!!!
smogeyesmrsjesus Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2003   Writer
thats picked your words well and i cant really say much else except for i have a friend..and this will make him cry.
C-Novack Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2003  Professional Photographer
From the beginning of the poem we feel the emotional pain presented here. The pining for completion is first felt in the opening stanzas when you draw upon "known" comparisions and then contrast them. Typically we are in pain when we are heartbroken or longing for happy days gone by. It is not typical to describe being in pain because one has hopes for happiness in the future. We stereotypically think of love bringing unboundful joy and happiness bringing us far away from pain. But here you make the comparision and surprise us. We want to read more to find out why, why does this love, this longing bring pain. We follow your simply heartfelt spoken words and discover the longing to become one with another is the nature that bore this pain. A pain many people can relate too on many different levels. This is an excellently crafted poem for its emotional impact on the reader, it's imagery and simple word choice that carries the weight of the emotions.
dougdrums Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2003
God, your poetry is beautiful.
drippingblood Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2002
P.S ohhh during this week or so, expect comments from me in all and everything you have submitted :p (Lick)
drippingblood Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2002
Like kara said.. you amaze me -- its like you just stepped into my brain -- well thats how it feels. how you speak of truth amazes me. you are more then human -- you are superman with a pen and paper that tells the truth so beautifully. how oxymoron it is to be in love but contain so much pain -- i use to think love = happiness and pain = sorrow, when it is the other way around. it feels good at times then everything collaspes. talent talent talent. an amazing person you are, talent alison. you have talent creativity and a heart. not many people have that. im glad i took the time to read this. farewell.

shaunathanblaze Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2002
wow this is soo beautiful
you are going straight on my watch
you express yourself so well
i can totally relate to this i just wrote a piece about the samr kinda thing (forshadowing memories) if ya wanna check it out
it is much more the pain of things that could be and not that of the good memories you have had

you have a wonderful talent
cooper Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2002
Congrats on the DP.... a very understandable poem, I feel it when I am away from my love for even a day.... :O (Eek)
sans-soleil Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2002
i have no words to praise this poem. it speaks so fluently my love to my loved.
piolapse Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2002
Very well done. Sadly, I know exactly how you feel. Beautiful period! :) (Smile)

lordofthespiral Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2002
I fucking know this feeling all too well...
rebelchic Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2002
you have a talent for this. every word here was beautifully said and when spoken outloud makes the reader feel what you feel...nicely done once again
claritydesign Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2002
Beer, potato chips, good music and insightful poetry, a nice way to finish off a memorable day. Thanks for the pleasure.
negative-zero Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2002
oh my.
it's is always the mark of a great poet
who can wrench words from their own heart
that echo perfectly
those of the hearts of others.

i'm stunned by how much
this might have been written by me
had i your gift.

thank you
from the depths of my heart
for sharing

keen Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2002   Writer
a great choice by faithwalker as usual. this is tricklespeakflow of liquid beauty utro. :) (Smile)
scottdoom Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2002  Hobbyist Photographer
I read this again. And I understand it a lot better (I read it sort of fast the first time) and this is just great. It has a great meaning, and you expressed it well.
scottdoom Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2002  Hobbyist Photographer
This is just.... wonderful. You're a great write. I hope that you're published, and if not you should be. This is great.
inennui Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2002
You are good at repeating lines (something I noticed). I can't really do it at all. This is written for a lot of us cyber-desire boxes, and good.
ragglesore Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2002
you truely know what love is. lucky, anyone would be, to share it with you.
Pachunka Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2002  Hobbyist Artist
Had no idea there'd be so many people able to relate to this.. storage..
I've not been without m'year'n'a half 4000 away either but :j

Terrific poemness.
Y'rock :D (Big Grin)
anyuta Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2002
You made me drop a tear:( (Sad)
I love this poem!
I can relate to this so much that it hurts....
It's beautiful!
tobie Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2002  Hobbyist General Artist
Congratulations on the DD!
ap3x Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2002
i wasnt sure what to expect when i clicked on this but i am glad i did. i can relate to this so much.. and it is painful yet beautiful.. a bittersweet situation. very well expressed.
elgatodiablo Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2002
you have far too many comments. so this is an anti-comment.
gleefulfreak Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2002
oh, you know i understand this poem completely, have been in the exact same place.

i wish your hearts' homecoming.

deejbard Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2002
gorgeous, alison. what can i say about a poem like this, in the current state i'm in? :) (Smile)

i am pained
because of beautiful truth
and far too short nights

yes, yes, yes.

kgcreative Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2002  Professional General Artist
There is no way that I could get through the comments so far... I tried.. ;) (Wink)


I am moved beyond words.

[incoherent attempt at beggining a description]

I can relate to this. I believe this is the first summer that my fiancee is here with me. After three summers, this is the first I don't feel this way. Your words moved me, as I've spent many a sunset, peering over the water as the sun slowly sinks, sitting in silent conteplation as I hope that somewhere, she is seeing the same sun and maybe thinking of me. I wish the best of luck to the both of you.



n0deal Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2002  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Very nicely written. I can totally relate, I've been doing the long distance for over two years now... but it is totally worth it and I know there are many great and wonderful memories to come. Thank you for reminding me. :D (Big Grin)
akyra Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002

*hugs da utro*

thank you. really...

:D (Big Grin)

haunting is probably the most effective, single word description that I can think of for this...

well, aside from wonderful. ;) (Wink)
justb Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002   Writer
It's like you took the breathlessness you feel when you dont know what to feel except deep down you long to feel. To feel this something that's already embedded in your heart and felt in your mind, (obvious by the words you conjure in it's absence) yet your _love_ hasn't seen the light of it's human touch yet. it just lurks in the silence of your sighs. I find it interesting to think that you especially are almost able to part the static of your computer almost in the way that Moses parts the Red Sea. You have this ability to part the sea of the internet that lies before you. That you are able to look into your box of colored pixels and Matt is able to look into his, and somehow you are together. And you know each other is there. You sense each other, you've been in each other's hearts. But you have yet to know each other's physical touch. But (down the river) your day is coming. I can only imagine you'll be prepared for the fireworks. Pristine piece.
lostsoul029 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
It's really nice. I'm just debating if I should add it to favs or not...

Ah, what the hell?

finch Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
I really dislike this poem. It's cliche-laden and focuses on one topic for far too long. I understand trying to create an effect of how much you want something through repitition, but this crosses the line between repetition and overuse.
darkphoenix Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002  Hobbyist Digital Artist
... yes ...

The details may differ a little, but I know the feelings expressed here. Very well expressed, I might add.

Nice work!
paranoidinhell Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
great poem, who doesn't like?
oddlyaromatic Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, this is... brilliant...

It's superbly written, welly done!
prelude Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
this is a incredibly touching poem. i think this will be the first poem that ill put under my favs. i think this is the best poem i have ever read.
caalis Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
Very, very touching. Your words are so easy to relate to, yet the meaning behind them may never be fully fathomed. My last relationship was somewhat the same, and I've still never gotten over it completely. There are just those...small wonders...that linger in my mind that I'll cherish forever. I'm glad you wrote the poem the way you did, as I'm sure many others are. This is definitely one of the best poems I've ever read, and judging from other comments, a lot of the deviants here feel the same. This is incredibly deserving of a DD, and many, many faves. Very nicely written.
neural-shock Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
There's almost nothing I can say that hasn't already been said about this poem, so I'll just say it's one of the best poems I've read since I'm a deviantART Logo member... Thumbs Up
coderebel Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002  Professional Digital Artist
Congrats for the DD.. Great poem!
chyval Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002   Writer
words fail me. i'm just gonna add this into my faves. it's the first one, mind you :) (Smile)
shon Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
god, i can't describe it, it's so..... i've just understood how long i haven't cried
mustafa232 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
eklipzed Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
congrats with the dp uttie :D (Big Grin)
angelic-taint Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
my favorite of yours so far, this should be a daily fav along with DP :P (Lick) Congrats, btw. I love it
rapidograph Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002  Professional Filmographer
... clean, strong, haunting to the point of chills when I was done... your pacing stands out like the impatience of a clock ticking ticking, ticking still... you have captured the essence of a long-distance love affair that many of us suffer from... a fine work and something that someone in particular should be very moved by... thanks for sharing this well-deserved DD...
cyan Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
I'm glad to see this poem winning the DD. Nod

ni9elives Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2002
wow... you really got the feeling one gets when falling in love. it's almost unbearable, but you love every minute of it :) (Smile) indeed
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