I woke today with a determination. One I hadn't felt in some great time. A determination to regain my creativity, my inspiration and motivation. To regain my life, thus leading to (hopefully) a happier future. I won't go into details, but it's been a difficult 6 months for me, and an uncertain several years. I don't know what lead me to wake with this energy today. But I did. And throughout the day I've thought about how to obtain what I want, what I need to make these changes. I've reminisced about my past, wrong and right choices, as well as the involuntary circumstances that lead me here. I played around online, searching for a new domain name, for example. My website has been gone for years. During my search, I was lead back to the old faithful deviantart. It's not like I don't visit it from time to time, but I stay on only to see if I have any new messages, comments, etc. Rarely, do I find anything at all.
Today, I lingered.
I started reading old journal entries. I came across a post on one of my journals from
meic2. Of all the friends, and more, I used to have on this site; of all the comments i've made and received from fellow deviants, of all the forums I've posted in; of all the contests I've created and the news articles I've written; of all the DD's I've received and given; I chose, today, only to go to
meic2's page. Only to see what he was up to these days. Why? He was my mentor. I don't even know if I ever told him this. He probably knew, without me saying. He treated me as an equal but his wisdom and talent far, far exceeded mine. I found out today, that on December 11th, Mike passed away, suddenly. I cannot express the sadness this gives me, and the remorse I have for never telling him what he did for me, and for, I'm sure, many others like me. He will be truly missed. So long, Mike. You were one in a digital sea of millions.